Monday, May 24, 2010

God grant me the serenity...

This past month has been a rough one. I've been trying to stick with some good eating and exercise habits that I've been cultivating, but it's not been easy. In the past couple of days I've fallen off the wagon. I'm determined to get back on. It's only a failure if I don't get back to it. I know that. So as of right now it's back on track for me.

I made the 25 lb mark last week. This week it's been diet sabotage. Go figure!!! It's actually remarkable that it hasn't happened before now. I started this journey in pain with my sciatica yet I managed to stay active through the pain and on board with my physical therapy. I've had a dear friend spend 20 days in the hospital nearly at death's door...I've had two family members spending time in the hospital with serious illnesses...and another taken to the emergency room due to an accident. I've discovered some disturbing things about someone I love with all my heart and haven't a clue what, if anything, I can do to help. It's hard to stay in control when life seems so out of control.

The only thing I can think to do is to keep putting one foot in front of the other one day at a time. Tomorrow I will go to ride my horse. I will be getting to ride the rising trot for the first time in more than a month. It's a small thing, but it's an improvement. I will cling to that and wait for the rest of the people in my life to get better...or not.

7 comments:

  1. I know how you feel all too well. Be strong. Hang in there. And take care of yourself. Prayers coming from this corner for everyone.

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  2. Keep putting one foot in front of the other! Life get's crazy, but the sun has to shine again. It's just a matter of time. Make sure in the chaos you take time for you. Shut the door and remember to breath.

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  3. take care of yourself there my dear!! This too shall pass!

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  4. *sigh* LIfe goes in cycles. Hope this downturn makes a quick about face. Horse therapy is highly recommended.

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  5. The Serenity Prayer sounds like a great way to manage such chaos. You can only fix what you have control of in the first place. Lots of things on your list are not within your power to fix even though you might wish you could.

    Hope things settle down for you soon and I hope the rising trot went well.

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  6. Stay positive and keep going forward, even if it is only a tiny step every day! It all adds up in the end. :) sending positive thoughts your way!

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  7. Beauty, unaccompanied by virtue, is as a flower without perfume..............................................

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